God doesn't give children with special needs to strong people; He gives children with special needs to ordinary, weak people and then gives them strength. Raising a child with special needs doesn't take a special family, it makes a special family.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

So I just realized my blog design is still "back to school...." a little behind I'd say! I have a few minutes so wanted to do a quick update!

This week has been crazy, and it's only Tuesday! As you know, we will be leaving this weekend to head to New York City for the marathon. I am a wreck...I'm nervous, excited, anxious, overwhelmed. So many emotions. Being my first marathon, my goal is to finish. I have a goal time in mind, but I know that even if I don't make it, I will be satisfied with a finish. Every time I think of Sunday, my eyes swell with tears. I know some don't fully comprehend the emotion behind this for me, so some think I'm crazy. Brenden has been my biggest cheerleader over the past six months. EVERY morning, within 2 seconds of walking in his room, he asked, "Mommy, how did your run go last night? How far did you run?" and then after I answered, he followed up, "Good job, Mommy. I'm proud of you." That's what kept me going.....he is obviously my motivation. He has made me proud in so many ways, and this is just one way to show him just how much he means to me. While he may not comprehend it now, I know that one day, I can look back and tell him about it.

As if my mind's not already swirling with emotion, as we speak, Brenden is being fitted for his first wheelchair. Three years ago the thought of him being in a wheelchair sparked so much fear, anger, and anxiety within me. Today, though, is quite different. I'm ok with it. I've grown to realize that it doesn't matter if he walks, regardless, he will go so far in life. The wheelchair obviously won't be an all the time thing, but it will be there when needed. He's getting too big for a stroller, and there are times when walking with his walker just isn't feasible. I also know that Brenden isn't one to be confined and sit still, so I have a feeling he won't WANT to use the chair often.

Hopefully life will start to slow down a bit after this weekend and I can just enjoy time with the kids a bit more without a thousand other things running through my mind. Brenden has recently learned "Knock, knock" jokes.....though he doesn't really have any good ones, he thinks anything he says is funny. Madelynn doesn't find the humor in it....after he tells one or two, she starts shaking her head saying "No more knock-knock." She continues to think she's a princess, and rightly so, I suppose.

Well chores are calling my name....next time you hear from me I will have run my first marathon!! Keep me in your prayers Sunday, my start time is 10:40 am. Also pray for the rest of "Team Take That!", as there are 10 of us running on behalf of the SBA!!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

well you did it, i am so proud of you, you are an inspiration to me. thank you and Jonathon for being there.